you were/are angry

It dawns on me now that you were angry with me - if I had known, I would have made it right - I would have cleared up any questions.

Will a sincere, "I was draft. Please forgive me for not knowing myself better and hurting your feelings," do anything to mend the misunderstanding at this point?

(Oh, wait. That would force you to acknowledge that you have feelings that can be hurt. And, without it being my intention, you're angry again. But at least this time, it isn't because I don't know what I want.)

heart to heart

She comes to my doorstep late in the night. I've had no forewarning to her presence. She comes through my door and proceeds to rip her heart from her chest and hand it out to me. I take it - carefully - and survey the red, bloody, fleshiness of it; the tale-tell throbbing of a vibrant, passionate soul.

I do the same - the gaping hole in my chest doesn't hurt in this kind of situation. I know what we are about. We so rarely have this time to review and comment on the changes - this mark here, that smudge there -- add a little spit shine to this area and elbow grease too. Is that shade a little darker; or redder?

And then, abruptly, it is done. Hearts are returned to chest cavities - manhandled, but better (in this case) for the wear. A hug and she's gone.

This is the oldest and dearest of my soul mates; and still, somehow, we make time for a heart to heart.

This is Just To Say - Six

This Is Just to Say -

I open my eyes
just a bit
wider
when we talk

Because I know
you drink in
the innocence,
so doe-like

Forgive me
I can't help
but be amused
as you are mesmerized
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In ...and the party begins, I was challenged to create my own variations of WCW's "This is Just to Say" --- one of many, I assume, that will come to fruition.

This is Just To Say - Five

This Is Just to Say -

I've advised her
to think
twice about
your interest

Since you decided
unwisely
to share it
with us, not her

In the end
I am saving you
Both much pain
and misunderstanding
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In ...and the party begins, I was challenged to create my own variations of WCW's "This is Just to Say" --- one of many, I assume, that will come to fruition.

This is Just To Say - Four

This is just to say-

I have danced
with your
boyfriend
in the dark

and have shared
with him
many a grin
in confidence

Don't blame me
I am close
And you
So far away

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In ...and the party begins, I was challenged to create my own variations of WCW's "This is Just to Say" --- one of many, I assume, that will come to fruition.

get ready to commit

And so, Kenya is about to become a reality. As my dear friend always says, "I am not committed until I've handed over the money."

I've received the credit card authorization form for payment on the return flight - RDU to London to Nairobi and back via the same path. All I have to do it fill it out and send it back...and viola! I am booked for a trip to Kenya! I can't wait!

Next up, scheduling a visit at a local travel clinic to get my shots and meds to make sure that I don't get sick while I am there.

This is Just To Say - Three

This is just to say -

PART 1

I lay my plans
in the best
of ways

despite the
saying
that they'll
"oft go awry"

I can't help it
the anticipation
is sweet
and so painful

PART 2

I often play
it cool
when we talk

I have to
since you are cold
and protected
by your wall

Forgive me
Your ability
to ignore me
chills my blood

PART 3

I bury myself
in your neck
my arms around
your shoulders

With the hopes
that you'll
understand
this time

Fuck it
It dawns on me
and I know
we're doomed
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In ...and the party begins, I was challenged to create my own variations of WCW's "This is Just to Say" --- one of many, I assume, that will come to fruition.

on top of Graham, NC

I try to live an adventurous life, but let's be real. There's not a lot of full-out adventure to be had in Graham, NC. I love calling it home, but for the most part, I have to find adventure in other places.

But, not this time.
I had the opportunity to walk through of the coolest, historic buildings in downtown Graham...and climb up to the roof. The roof had 2 levels; and I took the higher road -- I mean, really?! When am I ever going to get the chance to do this again?!

To be sure, I was a little nervous; but I didn't want to miss out on this random Wednesday afternoon adventure! It was worth it - I know that I've never seen Graham with that perspective and will always consider it a little differently now.

don't just stand there, do something

I am not so much interested in your acquiescence - I like objection, I like wrestling. It keeps things...interesting. I like, even better, your initiation. So, feel free to throw me a bone. I prefer mine juicy, if you must know.

This is Just To Say - Two

This is just to say-

I want you
more than
you realize,
I think

but then
you probably
are more aware
than I know

Forgive me
I am thoughtful
and maybe
too much so

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In ...and the party begins, I was challenged to create my own variations of WCW's "This is Just to Say" --- one of many, I assume, that will come to fruition.

Tonight's Fortune

Your present plans are going to succeed (in bed).

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That was my fortune tonight during dinner and I think I full-out blushed. Because in that moment, I thought about how great it would be to succeed in bed with you - and I lost my train of thought. Oh, well. It happens.

This is Just To Say - One

This is Just to Say

I have bitten
into his neck
a thousand times
in my dreams

which would
probably upset you
seeing the "he"
is you

Don't worry
There was no blood
Only sweat, spit
And lust

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In ...and the party begins, I was challenged to create my own variations of WCW's "This is Just to Say" --- one of many, I assume, that will come to fruition.

um, now please

Sometimes, someone just says it better than I can -



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